Parting is Such Sweet Sorrow
Feb. 25th, 2016 03:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
true_noirChloe genuinely despised writing goodbye letters or saying goodbye in the first place, and found informing people of someone's departure in Amat to be one of the most unpleasant and onerous duties imaginable. but, over the years, she developed a certain apologetic and contrite streak that made her feel that she owed at least certain people a series of final apologies before she left. Here they are.
To Kyoko
Date: 2016-02-25 08:43 pm (UTC)You were, perhaps, one of the only people on this island who never gave up on me, and for five years, I have wracked my brain to understand why that is. Anyone else, who I had put through some of the horrors that I have, would have left me at the roadside long ago, and yet you still tolerated my company, heard my advice and called me friend. There were times I thought perhaps I was a better person than I am, simply because you refused to give up on me. Had I reached that point, I guess maybe I really would have been a complete lost cause.
I know that you once said you intended to perform a funeral for me. If you must, you must. I love that you even thought to say that before I went. I doubt there will be one in my world. An assassin is a thing best left forgotten, its grisly work done.
For those years of staying close, no matter how I teased, remaining close even after Mokou, you will always have my gratitude. I only wish that I would remember that where I am going.
-Chloe
To Parsee
Date: 2016-02-25 08:46 pm (UTC)If you never see this, good. I was a terrible lover to you, even if I became the woman that you needed. I was a worse friend to you, especially early on, and I can never apologize for what happened to Mokou enough. That you kept me, that we remained this close, despite everything, I don't care if I am dead now, finally. I don't care if it is impossible.
I will find a way to remember you.
-Chloe
To Hermione
Date: 2016-02-25 08:49 pm (UTC)I will pray always that my fears were wrong, that I did not fail you at the last, and that you are back with your friends, fighting that foolish war of yours, that Poseidon did not take you as he swore he would.
Be safe, my friend.
-Chloe
To Mokou
Date: 2016-02-25 08:50 pm (UTC)Should you read this, I pray only that you stare at it in confusion, shrug because you have no clue who I am, burn the paper to ash and go get drunk while railing about Atia.
We should never have met. I was nothing but a curse to you, and if the gods are kind, you will never be cursed so again.
-Chloe
Raine Sage and Sheena Fujibayashi
Date: 2016-02-25 08:52 pm (UTC)If you read this, I am gone. I release you of any obligation I placed upon you. You are free, and it may be best if you seek counseling, forget the things we have done, the lies we have told and the hell we created for each other just to continue to feel in this wretched place.
I have sent word to the city to have Jack Sparrow's cabin burned to the ground. I doubt it was ever zoned. It is a terrible place, and its memories should be forgotten forever. Know that I did care for you two, if I am capable of doing so in truth, but that I realize that my affections were misguided and misplaced in so many ways. Try to become whole once more.
-Chloe
Alkaid
Date: 2016-02-25 08:55 pm (UTC)I was not good to you, and though we buried the hatchet between us, though we forgave each other and, in the fires of hell we made good on the pact so long ago, I was the one who survived. The monster was cursed to linger and know regret. I was never good for you, and you deserved a better friend than I. I should have escaped Larxene's clutches with you. We should have been free of her. My mother would have hated what I became in your arms.
I hope you are free and well. I hope that you never read this.
-Chloe
Larxene
Date: 2016-02-25 08:58 pm (UTC)Larxene,
You have a power over me, still to this day. The mere thought of your hands on me wakes me in the night in shivers. I want to rape you. I want to kill you. I want to bare all that you were to this island and tell them what you did to all of them, but I cannot. I am a coward. To tell them, I would have to admit to them what I let you mold me into, what I chose to become here.
We're both monsters, and we deserved no better than we became. You, unlike me, embraced that. You would laugh at the sentimentality of this letter, but do you know what? Fuck you.
I wish I could have helped you, or fled you. I'm not sure which. As it stands, I allowed you to be free for too long. The island suffered for it, and I carry that regret to our mutual graves.
-Chloe
To Ishida
Date: 2016-02-25 09:00 pm (UTC)You are one of the few who remains who knows this failure. I still fear to this day that Poseidon has her. I have failed her, for all of my life I have failed her. In so many ways, I was not worthy of Hermione, and I will always regret that.
Live what time you have left on this island in peace. Hopefully the place will at least be free of my stain.
-Chloe
To the TARDIS
Date: 2016-02-25 09:02 pm (UTC)You were never mine to hold. It took a long time to recognize that, to sift through the lies I let Atia tell me, and the lies I told myself. I wanted something, something beautiful in this wretched place that could be mine, to not feel powerless in this disgusting, filthy hovel of an island. And I took you. I tried to make you mine, to possess you.
You belong to no one, or if you belong to any, it is your precious Doctor, though I do not think he is worthy of you. I am sorry for what I did, and I hope that you never see this letter.
-Chloe
To Tsubaki Kasugano
Date: 2016-02-25 09:04 pm (UTC)We both know that I was not in my right mind that night, but it does not excuse what happened. I was weak, and you suffered for it. But after so long, I still feel remorse for what happened. You did not deserve any of that.
By the same token, should anyone ever read this letter to you, priestess, I pray that you learn this one truth. Atia does not deserve you. She will always be beneath you. Live, free of her shackles and have a better life than you did when last here.
-Chloe
To Naoto Shirogane
Date: 2016-02-25 09:06 pm (UTC)In another life, I could have loved you properly. But, in another life, we would have tried to kill each other. Odd how that works. You, at least, I think are probably living a much happier life now, and so for that I am grateful. I am grateful that I don't have as much to apologize for with you.
Know, however, that you were missed, you and your friends. The house was much lonelier without you around to torment.
-Chloe
To Souji
Date: 2016-02-25 09:08 pm (UTC)It was not for long, but your shared presence helped.
-Chloe
To Erika Karisawa
Date: 2016-02-25 09:10 pm (UTC)I barely remember your face, not without the help of old videos. You are, perhaps, the one person that ever lived on this island that I owe no apology to, save one. I was not the person you thought that I was, nor was I worthy of your company. But I am grateful that I never once hurt you, and that all we did was as we wanted it to be.
You will remain, now to my dying breath, one of the few memories untainted by pain on this island. Thank you for that.
-Chloe
To Haruhi
Date: 2016-02-25 09:32 pm (UTC)Either way, I hope your life is happier now than it once was.
-Chloe